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[Shiray]

My stance was still lowered; the relaxation of the males after I had came back let my nerves rest only so slightly. I evaded though that small comment that Fenris said first about coming back. It was a waste of breath on answering him. However, I knew this 'calmer' state was only temporary. My eyes were keen on that son of a b****, (technically, he is one!) Fenris. Oh, how I despised him. I had more respect for Lua and Anju and even Sullivan, hard to believe I know. Which reminds me, I wonder how I can make it up to Sullivan? I almost shuddered visibly when thoughts of what could happened occurred to me. Still... I would rather him try to get over it than linger on it for too long, let him have his fun. Fenris on the other hand, was a different story.

F-e-n-r-i-s... I drew out the name in my head, adding a small ‘hisss’ that accompanied the 's'. I despised that creature! Seriously, what did Sullivan see in him? Fenris, -was to me- no better than the Omega. He was such a pain, an annoyance, a nuisance! Was there anything else that could fit in there? Oh yes, a humorous amount could come spilling out of my mouth to insult him, some more pleasant than others. Ooh, how I despised him. I just couldn’t say that enough.

My precious thoughts of profanities still clung and rambled on in my head when a rustling sound caught my attention. I looked back behind me, ever so slightly to find Anju entering the little 'meeting'. My tail wagged slightly when I saw her, she was one of my best friends as well. Actually… so far, all the female members in the pack where indeed my friends. I had yet to find someone who would actually enjoy being bullied by the males. Even the puny ones like Fenris. Surely it was in a female's nature to fight back, even if it wasn't voiced. The thoughts that rambled on in our heads were ours and ours alone. Get that? ALONE Fenris!

When I took another glance at Lua, I did not miss the sympathy in her eyes. I appreciated it, but why would I need sympathy for having to take care of some business? I knew though why the sympathy was there, it looked as if I was going to be 'punished', but sure as hell that won't stop me from wishing to kick and beat the snot out of Fenris for being so nosey. I returned my gaze back to the front, looking at the ground for a moment, lost in though. Then I felt Anju put her muzzle up to my ear to whisper something. I slightly relaxed, but a devilish smirk appeared on my face, only to be quickly removed by the growling of Sullivan. I also appreciated Anju's concern and nodded only slightly in her way.

There! Completely off topic, but I saw it! Fenris let his gaze linger to long on Anju! Oh yes big-boy, I caught it! Ooh, what better to tease you with! Better yet, I slowly let it slip if I catch you doing the slightest things that would tick off Sullivan! "Shoot!" I thought. Sullivan would probably take it out on Anju! I couldn't let that happen! I looked over at Anju again and let out a breath her way, giving a slight hint I was okay and to let her worrying ease a bit. I loved my friends, I truly did -and still do! Yet, did I have their trust? If I managed to speak with them alone, would they be with me when I said I wanted to be free of this all-male rule? Such a bad time to bring it up now anyway, as I was so cautious my eye caught the sudden movement of Fenris.

He walked ever so close to me, and I rose to a more defined sitting position. What was he up to? I watched carefully as my eyes narrowed in concentration. He angled his body in a way and I really had to hold myself back from wanting to take a bite out of his flesh. However, that simply would not do. I had examined much more in his position. If I did strike, it would give him perfect access to my neck. That... would not be good. Then suddenly, my ears perked forward as I caught what he said. "Tell me, what are you expecting, exactly?" Expecting what? Ooh, I knew this! Actually, I knew two ways I could answer this. What type of consequences my action could have caused and also what I expected to be able to do when I had to take care of business.

I chuckled quietly in my head of the possible embarrassment of the male. Knowing though that some other thing could happen and he wouldn't be embarrassed. Oh well, I'll just go with the second one. Checking my stance and readying my muscles incase my next remark would cause an attack -sort of a reflex actually-, I carefully re-thought my ideas again. Slowly, I raised my head as if to look at him. My eyes looked to his eyes once in the back down on his muzzle in an unfocussed gaze. "I was just expecting to be able to go relieve my bladder." I said, pausing a bit. Ooh, it would have been perfect if I heard someone snicker, but for now I pushed it out of my head.

My pause ended, but then I began very shortly after. "But perhaps, dear Fenris, wonderful Beta, that for your sake of wanting to keep an eye on me, I pee in front of your face?" I asked, in a sweet and innocent tone. What I was I doing wrong? I was using sweet puppy innocence in this question. I just wanted to know if there was some way I could better my actions by asking him a harmless question. What was wrong with that? I wanted to please my... elder by learning of what to do instead. Oh but I had to agree with myself there that that, right there, was a good come-back to his question before. "Oh please be with me on this Lua, Anju, and at least laugh or snicker in your heads. I know my punishment that could occur, but I am partly doing this for you too!" Those there where my last thoughts, before my attention and caution quickly shifted back to Fenris.


Word count: 1,093
->My best yet! YES!

[Fenris]

(1,093? Congrats)

Odd enough, yes, but somehow her words seemed hilarious to Fenris. He let out a small muffles snigger at first, then laugh out loud for a couple seconds. Once he managed for force his laughter to subside, he lowered his head and grinned openly at her, a mad glint flashing repeatedly through his eyes. Though his inner thoughts did not in the slightest reflect his current appearance.

'Hehe, even I have to admit that was clever,' he thought, 'Oh, she loathes me so much. Hehe, its hilarious how much she despises me. True, I don't much care for her either, but I quite like watching her attempts at rebelling. They're interesting - and give me something to do, for a change.' Fenris knew that Sullivan would expect him to lunge at her, nape bristling and fangs bared, but he wanted to toy with her a little more. Getting her worked up and angry was fun. Then again, he didn't want to displease Sullivan in the slightest. 'I have worked and fought for a high position in this pack for way, way too long. I can't really risk throwing it all away now. Some call me a coward and a bastard, but in the end, we all want what is best for ourselves, no? I've worked too hard, too long... One bitch isn't going to change that. No, it won't. I'm sure. I might be slightly smaller than most, but what I have is packed with muscle - and even better, experience. Above all I have a better head on my shoulders than most.'

The Beta's hackles were lowered and his toothy grin slowly faded into a light small playing gently across his lips. His face was the pure pinnacle of amusement and interest. "I have to give you this, that was clever," he said honestly, and completely unbothered. In fact, he sat down, his eyes still fixed on Nashida. Fenris pulled his right forepaw back, digging small trenches into the earth before placing his paw where it was and doing it again.

"Well, dearest Nashida, do you have any more comments or remarks to tell? I really need to carry on with the meeting and I'm afraid your holding it back," he said in a neutral, uncaring voice. In fact, now his mood was changed - again - and he was rather nonchalant at the moment. He just wanted this meeting to be over so he could... no, scratch that idea. He looked around. None of these- he couldn't afford to- oh, forget it. He dismissed the idea completely. He was Beta, and Sullivan was his superior. He couldn't afford to earn his displeasure by showing such thoughts and wants.

Fenris, a small, some would call puny male had managed to gain the pleasure of Sullivan - a huge brute of a wolf. Unlike some wolves who had the ability to use pure strength and brawn, it was necessary for him to return it with speed, maneuvering, and wits. His eyes drifted over Nashida's form, studying her again. He still didn't get how she despised him so. Well, maybe some people just didn't understand that he was only a complete bastard to everyone because he needed to please Sullivan. If he had already been at the top, he would actually live and let live, for the most part, and leave the punishing and like to others.

He blinked, and inhaled deeply. "Its your choice. You can either attempt to anger me, or you can just shut your maw now and deal with your punishment,"

[mrsusan]

//Sullivan//
I watched the two squabble with mild pleasure. The banter was fine to watch, far more entertaining than the stunned silence that often filled my life. Unlike the common thought I wasn’t an unsociable creature, I enjoyed being around others company, whether it was for simply talking or taking my anger out. Maybe that was why I liked having Lua around, I wouldn’t care if she dropped down dead, though it might be an inconvenience to me because I’d have to take on another female, but it wouldn’t hurt my heart.

I had never admitted to myself that I liked her company, I’d lived closely with her for two years, the only female I’d spent so much time with, except perhaps my mother. The only time she did leave me was when I told her so, when I wanted to have my “pleasures”, I didn’t really want her watching, and that was a bit twisted right?

Reina, the name trickled into my mind, my sister, I knew that much. She wasn’t there when I slaughtered my parents and siblings, she managed to get away. Her living had never bothered me before, so then why was it in my head now? Whisperings, mutterings, the sound of her name under low tones, I presumed she was alive, but why was the wind whispering her name? I’d never liked her, she was the runt, I even thought she was weak then, back when I was delusional and actually thought her life meant something, this pack taught me differently however. I now knew the truth.

The best years of my life, more so than even my childhood innocence, within this pack I was free do as I wished, free to kill those I wanted and let my anger out, instead of my birth pack, they taught me to trap it, keep it corked up. If you don’t let your feelings free they build up and explode, affecting anyone, rather than those who are there for that reason. I smiled to myself, yes, life was great.

"I was just expecting to be able to go relieve my bladder."

The voice of the female distracted me, what was she saying? I growled lowly, snarling as she continued to disrespect Fenris. It may be a game between them, talk, the clever exchanging of words, well, she better keep her trap shut if she didn’t want her death to come about sooner than expected. I raised an eyebrow at Fenris, the gentle anger clearly written over my face, she better get what she’s asking for.

//Lua//
Oh gods, please, what was she doing? I stared at her, worry planted within every crease of my face; oh I hoped she’d stop. I looked up at Sullivan’s own face, he was angry too, and I knew what that meant. She was taking herself down a twisting path, if she was killed now she’d go to hell, she’d broken so many rules, and oh I knew it. The things I grew up on, she was standing up to him, breaking the number one rule. I whined silently, she was the kind of she-wolf he’d told me about, the type he told me never to become, acting on free will.

[Shiray]

Brown, solid, yet shifting- what was this but dirt? My gaze had shifted to the small detail in the ground. I was really board. However, I kept my ears in tune to everything around me. Fenris then started to laugh and a small grin of amusement played upon my lips. So he complemented me did he? I looked up innocently at him, my ears perked forward. ”It’s a pleasure to entertain you Fenris.” I had said in somewhat of a dull tone, yet soft. It was completely dull of emotion when I said it; I didn’t feel like I had any emotion left right now. Still though, my ears were still alert.

Once my ears picked up the growling of Sullivan, I lowered my body and tucked my tail around me so I was lying down. Hm… I was so bored now. Maybe I should just get along with Fenris. As you can see, my devil side as left me, leaving my nicer self weak and not only mentally weak, but it affected by physical strength just a little. It was such a complicated mind I just had to be blesses -cursed- blessed- cursed… I don’t know! Call it whatever you may, but I know it has its advantages and disadvantages. Why oh why must I be stuck with this internal conflict. I swear if I don’t die from these males I will surely kill myself with this mind.

My gaze quickly flicked back over to Lua. I swiftly carried my gaze to her eyes and over to Anju’s. ‘I’ll be alright guys.’ I said in my gaze. Once my silent message was over, I looked back over to Fenris and put my head on my paws. My posture was low and relaxed. I didn’t answer him, but by doing that I did not offend him. At least I didn’t think I did. My ears layed back flat and my eyes were glazed over as I didn’t focus on any one thing. Even though it may look like I’m giving up, rests assure my friends- I am not.