Himura Rikuo's Journal, (Written Against My Will.)

[Himura Rikuo]

Okay, here's the deal, I just have to put one entry in this thing a week and I get an extra thirty bucks of pay in my check. Kakei says so, he also says it might help me to find Tsukiko in some manner.... Of this I am unsure... I have a feeling that Saiga will be snooping through it and claim it's part of his job.

The only person I can truely say that I trust around here is Kaza- kun. He's so childlike and innocent and I don't think doing something like sneaking a peek in my journal is going to be something he'd do. He really is too cute for his own good though and so fragile... I feel like he is anyway. I also feel like.... I have to protect him from anything that might hurt him. But I can't always.... I hate that. I can't protect everyone... I couldn't even protect her... Tsukiko, you would know what to do if you were here right now, wouldn't you?

[Himura Rikuo]

Fay gave this to me... I vaguely remember having one before... i don't think I liked it though. He thinks this might help me to recall important things, like the shop I worked for and lived above. If that was indeed what it was. Or what my real name is. For now Rosuto is a good enough name right? It bothers me sometimes that I can't remember certain things. It took a bit before I knew I liked chocolate for instance. And I could've sworn I hated it... But maybe that was someone else... Someone important. I need to find a job though, I get the feeling that I need the money for something. If not just to pay for my share of the expenses so that Fay doesn't have to pay for all of it. I'm so confused, yesterday I cried for no reason at all. What happened to make me forget? It must've been terrible, surely.... Something I can't recall... I wanted to protect them, but I couldn't and that's all I know. I think I may have hurt them by not keeping my promise.... I'm not sure anymore...

Yesterday, we went shopping Fay and I, and I it was fun, but I must've forgotten a lot, because I had no clue what I liked to eat, or disliked so we're just going to take it easy for now and if something comes up that I remember, I'm to write it here... Or tell the Doc.... I guess this is all I know, for now.... I'll respond when I remember something more, or have something more to write.