Done... Tapped Out..., Hit Bottom... and other similar phrases

[Kaito]

YOU KNOW IT'S BAD: When you're given two weeks to do ONE RP for an event... and you don't.

YOU KNOW IT'S WORSE: When you don't have a legitimate excuse as to why you didn't RP for said event.

YOU KNOW IT'S EVEN WORSE: When you have the same setback for the next event.

This has never happened to me before. To go two full events and not RP... and not have a reason why (i.e. out sick, net's down, etc etc etc). All of this... is a sure sign... that I've got nothing left to commit to the world of e-fedding.

I'm tapped out.

10 years I've been in this. Through the good times and the bad. Through two major setbacks... being kicked out of my parents' house back in '99 when I first started, and Hurricane Katrina back in '05. Through my own set of ups and downs. From Reptile to Kaito. And everywhere in between.

I knew my time was coming to an end. That I was going to eventually lose that spark I had. The drive that kept me going for as long as I did. I've felt this way for the most part of the year. Having to push myself to RP. That's something else I've never had to do in the past. It used to be where I could plan out a set of RPs and/or a storyline for several months down the stretch. Now... I can't even commit to RP'ing.

So I guess this truly is "JIENDO" for me. I would try to push myself to RP, but I'd only be fooling myself. So that's it. It's been a cool 10 years, but... I'm done. Time to send Kaito back to the Land of the Rising Sun. Time for me to stop fooling myself into thinking I can RP another week.

Will I ever return to the world of e-fedding? Who knows. The spark may show up again, but it won't be anytime soon. It's not like I can take a few months off, come back and it'll be there. No. It's gone. And it may be a long while before it ever comes back... IF it does at all.

So in closing, I'd like to thank the following people for keeping it interesting for me these past 10 years:

Neil: That Butch Match of ours will forever be embedded in my mind. That was one hell of a feud we had. And you're one hell of an e-fedder... no matter if you're in charge or competing against us. It's been awesome working with you and competing against you.

Josh: You're probably drinking while reading this right now, huh? But that's what's cool about you. Drunk or sober, you're fucking cool as shit. Same for when you RP. No matter if you're Joz, Sid Luscious, or Carson Rogers... you kick ass regardless.

Andrew: You're the oldest guy I've ever fedded with. But with the way you RP... I sometimes forget that. I don't think a single show you've competed in has gone by that you didn't put on a clinic when RP'ing. And they wonder how you managed to remain World Champion for so long. On two separate occasions, nonetheless. Keep it up, old man. Terminus had better be a 3-time World Champion by the time you even consider retiring.

Nighthawk/Okori: From FCW to here... the saga of Nighthawk vs Kaito unfolded. From being friends, to enemies, to best of friends, to bitter enemies... it was cool. And I think the people at Rosetta Stone should consider sponsoring Nighthawk, but that's just my opinion. What do I know? But yeah. Keep it up, Mr. PWA Foreign Translator.

Paul: As many times as you said it, and as many times as I shot you down both IC and OOC... somehow you managed to pull off the unthinkable by becoming Light Heavyweight Champion. So the next time you have a brilliant idea that someone thinks may be outlandish... act upon it. It's gold. Keep at it brah.

Will: I was hoping to maybe tough it out a little bit longer... at least until Redemption 3 where I hoped there'd be a Round 3 in the Va'aiga/Kaito feud. But... I got nothing left in the tank. It's not your fault, if that's what you're thinking. You're just that damn good. Heel Va'aiga is a BEAST!!! I should know. I feel sorry for the next sucker... I mean, person... that crosses paths with you. Do that Premiere Title some much-needed justice and break that damn curse!

Rich: You sick sadistic bastard... oh wait. That's Captain Howdy. Nevermind. But it's your genius behind him, so maybe it does apply. But yeah. It was fun having you as perhaps the only Tag Team partner Kaito could trust... even if he wouldn't admit it. But don't worry. He'll put your gifts to him from last year to good use. *wink wink, nudge nudge, say no more*

Steve, Bailey, Jake: I lumped you three together because I really didn't get to do much with you all in the way of storylines or feuds. But all three of you are cool as shit. I can only imagine what could have been had the time come for us to feud. But in the meantime, keep on keepin' on.

To anyone that didn't get mentioned: I either didn't do much with you in this fed or any other fed, or I don't even know you. But regardless, keep at it.

This is Jason... a.k.a. Jiraiya Kaito... hanging it up. "Minnasan sayonara!"

start: May 10, 1999
end: November 7, 2009

EDIT: Forgot Rich's mention. *smacks himself on the forehead*

[goldeneagle]

Hey man, it was an honor to get to RP against you twice. I hope that everything will turn out alright for you.

-John (Jack Gaither)

[Aiden Miles]

I've often felt like you. Where is the next roleplay going to come from, but I manage to do it and pull the character from the toilet.

I think MAYBE you've exhausted all options with Kaito, and you COULD try create a new one? It might reinvigorate you completely, or even wish you where back as Kaito.

Or you could call it quits, and I don't think anyone is going to hold it against you for it. Sucks bro, and If this IS your last match...I'm glad I'm the one writing it. Although you probably won't be.

Don't be a stranger but, and your random comments on AIM are always welcome (Even if I don't respond)

[Neil]

Shit we are getting old man. 10 years. I've been playing with you nearly all those years too. I remember Reptile (NWWF) even though you don't want me too! Kaito wrestling weekly with a cracked skull in gfwa OMEGA. Butcher/Kaito in TNW is probably my most favorite angle of all time. Kaito vs. Butcher round 2 maybe later? If he wakes up.

But damn dude, it has been a hell of a run. Take your retirement/break and if it comes back, get back here. Even the 'rising son' has his 'son-set'. Like how I did that?

[Ryan Shane]

You messaged me to tell me...and it is hard to believe. Ever since I got here you were one of the constants in this fed. We have a couple good matches against each other and we tagged a few times and always liked your stuff.

I even remember when I quit the fed over Kaito being Thunder Kite.

I know how it feels though. I question everyday if Ryan Shane still has a future in PWA because I feel it's run it's course. Going as long as you did must have been tough. I still thought your stuff was good but sometimes even when you want to write you can't. When it starts to feel like work it is better to hang things up.

I know you said you were done, but I think one day you will come back, you will miss it. Plus if you hang around the boards and check things out it might reignite that spark.

Either way, sucks to see you go.

[Aiden Miles]

Kaito for GM...oh wait.

[Chris Wilkins]

Jason, you were always one of my favorite RPers. The few times we faced against each other, were some of the funnest times I had in this game. Kaito is an amazing character and you're an amazing writer. I know how you're feeling, since pretty much the same thing happened to me. Hopefully one day, you'll feel that spark again cause this game won't be the same with out.

[Nighthawk]

*bows*

It will be a different place without you here. Not necessarily better. Good luck man.

[DaMaori]

I'll say from experience... Burnout sucks. But I hope to see you back e-fedding at some stage. Even if it takes you months, or even a couple of years to get your writing head back, the loss of Kaito for good would be a bad thing.

Still e-fedding has this horrible habit of dragging you back in. But until that day, enjoy retirement. And stick around the boards at least!

Va'aiga v Kaito has been my favourite fued in PWA so far. The way it started with a simple problem (Kaito using the blood mist in a tag match) and spiralled into this massive blood fued, cementing my heel turn and you as a face along the way. It's always great when two opponents keep giving each other stuff to make RPs with and there have been plots and subplots bouncing back and forth.


Happy trails!

[Keeton]

Sucks to see you go cause other than Neil I've known you longer than anyone here. Hard to believe that as many times as we've both faced other people multiple times we've only faced each other one on one once. I know what you mean about not being able to write, I been that way for about to weeks but I'm not ready to hang it up just yet, if you get it back we'll be here in some form.

[Jason Sandman]

Jason man its been a hell of a ride. From the start of PWA where you and Drew said that you wanted me for Gundan RTO we have always had interesting conversations. Whether it be strategy or just us fucking around in character when it came to Sandman trying to fuck Miko and Kaito flipping out.

I always hated that i didn't give you a go when you beat me for teh world title, but hey I got my light heavyweight title right. Took me two fucking years, but hey I made my point. Been fun to have gotten that shot against you.

Take care dude and you know I will be bugging you. After all Sandman has an asian fetish that Miko needs to cure.

[Terminus]

Jason, from the bottom of my heart, let me say "Domo Arigatou" for creating a character that was a joy to read, and an absolute bitch to rp against. Thanks for making an inanimate lion statue one of the coolest npc's that I've ever seen in this game. Thanks for bringing KILLER Kaito to existance, and making kick-ass zombified martial artists that much cooler to read.

Thanks for being my main source of information about puro, and for being a cool guy to talk to about anything in general online. Hopefully I'll see you on AIM still, so those conversations can continue.

Thanks for turning Term's secondary finisher in TNW, and turning it into the motherfucking JIENDO/aka coolest e-fed finisher of all time. Thanks for helping to set up Term's revenge angle against the Butcher, which became the basis for a LOT of my later rp's in TNW and early rp's in PWA. Thanks for helping to set up Gundan RTO which I think remains the defining stable in PWA to this point.

Thanks for all of that, Jason. It made this game that much more enjoyable to play, and this federation that much more fun to be a part of.

So, once again, Domo Arigatou...And I wish you all the best.

~Andrew

[Captain Howdy]

Jason, I haven't known you as long as some of the others here, and that's my loss. From the time I've been in the PWA, I've followed Katio's story probably more closely than anyone else's The way you set everything up, the voice-overs and yes, the lion statue, were all brilliant.

I loved that whole thing the Captain had with Katio as a tag team partner, and an adversary. I've never worked that hard to get a draw in my fedding career. To be honest, I really wish we had a chance to wrap that whole thing up, but maybe it's better left where it is.

And believe me, I know from burnout. It's a shame that the PWA is going to lose yet another fantastic writer, and oustanding character. Hopefully you'll be back in some form, when the inspiration strikes you again. I'll be looking forward to that day, although I'll be dreading writing against you again

All the best to you Jason. You will be missed around here.

[Anthony D'Amato]

Jason,

Even though we only got to RP battle once it was a plesure doing so and against the Premiere Champion. Have fun in whatever you chose to do next. One more thing if by some chance you do come back it would be an awesome honor to be able to face you once again, granted that I'm still around by then. (Domo Arigato, you slant eyed chink ---That was from D'Amato)
.
Anthony

P.S. Yes my name is Anthony, LOL!!!

[Carson Rogers]

Jason

Sorry I haven't responded to this sooner but I was back home practicing the craft of murdering animals as PETA fags would call it...aka I was deer hunting chasing the elusive whitetail and then becoming pissed off by the elusive whitetail and my beloved Hawkeyes so yes...When I first read this I was drunker than a three peckered billy goat at a wine tasting event.

It's been fun over the years rping with and against you, always been one of the hardest characters for me to trash in rp's through the years...

Been fun shootin' the shit through the years so make sure you keep in touch bro.

If I had time this week I'd drink some for you and post a drunken response, but...School calls this week.

Take care, keep in touch, and if you find a slutty set of twins...give me a buzz if you need some help...chances are I'd force you to sit in the other room while I had my way with both of them, but hey....

Take it easy bro.